Last week

I have been looking at the world around me. The world that others created for me, the world that I created for myself. There is not much difference in both. But the differences that do exist are big.
There has been an invasion in my personal life. An invasion which was self invited. Something which I cant resist. Over a past few weeks I have been in conversation with a girl. Her name is Tanya. I met her in a Chatroom in Shanghai. And I spoke to her once. But since I have come back from my home, this new development is taking a major shape. Some lies and some truth afterwards, she is taking most of my time over phone, and obviously my bills.
Tanya is from Bengal. She used to work for Qatar Airways till last week, when she resigned because her boss made a pass on her. Now she says she has surprise in for me for a new job. I wonder what would that be. My most intelligent guess is that she is trying to find one in Bangalore and may be she is quite successful with that. I dont know what is so enticing or attractive abt my voice that is drawing her close to me. She says she never had a boyfriend, which to a certain level is unacceptable owing to her good looks, and her flamboyant lifestyle. I like her but not to an extent of falling over again, when I already have someone waiting for me in a distant place.
Work sometimes sucks, or lets say no work has always sucked me. Since I have come from Shanghai, the pace of my life has slowed to a snail's. Coming to office, sipping tea and smoking are the favorite passtimes. Infact this blog is being written from an office system, caz I have too much time to kill. I am waiting for some events to shape up that put me back on a flight to Shanghai. May be this time I will not come back.
Last night a strange thing happened during my conversation with Tanya, she suddenly kind of proposed me. And I was clueless as how to reply to that. I wanted to say no. But I dont know what made me said " I am undecided". Perhaps I will tell her about Hsing Chi. She makes fun of me knowing all my failures with females. Frankly speaking either I have been too early, too late or too far to do anything. She calls me Devdas. To counter that I say that she is Paro, but that is no logic. As she is not my love interest. Sometimes I feel guilty over courting a girl, with Hsing Chi already committed to me. Hsing is 9 yrs older to me. But her dedication and commitment towards me is making me crazy about her. Tanya is 1 yr younger to me, but I feel this is very frivulous relationship, which will lose its worth in few days, though we will continue to be friends.

My main worry before taking a plunge myself into the world of married males is my sisters marriage. There have been lot of speculations and responses, as one will know about Great Indian Arranged Marriages, but none is getting to a fixed zone. I can understand the torment my sister has to face everytime, and she is more or less responsible for it. When she had a chance why didn't she marry the guy she liked. What about the stars, what about astrology, what about culture? I dont give a damn. I beleive that to change a nation's mentalty, we need some drastic changes in the mindset of the our people, our society.
Why do we crib about unhygenic grounds and blame authorities, when we are the one who have played some role in that?
Why do we make a hue and cry about a wrong decision or policy by a stupid politician, who thinks only about his position, when he is sent to parliament by us? Interestingly he gets a second term on the same constituency. Why dont people understand? Why dont they strip these blood suckers of their fucking high headed ness? Why the bloody they chose people with criminal records to the Parliament? Are they blind to see that he is only hungry for power, which he will unleash on them only?
There are lot of questions, unfortunatly the answers are missing. Only thing available is hope.

HOPE!!